The Popcorn's Gone

“Then I guess we were never meant to be...”

“I wish it had been different, the road ahead, I mean, not how it was.. how we were all these time.. those.. those had been the happiest of days, that, I wish, could have been forever”.

“Well, we've lived that dream long enough. Time to wake up.”

“I wish you didn't make it sound like that. You know, so curt”.

“How else do you want me to be? You said yourself it's not possible to go on. So be it”.

“I know you're hurting. You're just putting up that facade again, as you always do when faced with disappoinments. Don't do that with me”.

“If you say so”.

“Don't be like this. This may be our last moment together”.

“And what of it? You want to leave with sweet memories? You want us to hold each other till it's time to part? Then you go off, and we don't see each other again? Would that be, say, more romantic for you? Well – movie's over. Popcorn's gone.”

“Baby..”

“Go. Please, just go”.

“Will you be okay?”

“Don't ask me stupid questions. We've both been stupid in our make believe world long enough. Put a lid on it”.

“Well? What are you waiting for? Go! Leave! Just .. leave. Let me be”.

“I said, leave”.

How much longer...

“How long must it be? How much longer must we hide our feelings? Why should we care what others say, or think of us?”

“Didn't you hear me?”

“I did.”

“Well?”

“It won't be for too long. Soon enough it will be okay for us to let them know.”

“When?! For how long? You keep saying that. I'm getting tired of our hidden meetings. It's just stupid to do so!”

“I don't know how long this will take. But soon. Soon, we will let them know.”

“I don't want to wait too long. Either we let them all know about us, ... or...”

“Give it just a little while longer. Things will work out for the better, trust me.“

“I do, I do trust you, but you've got to try harder letting them know.”

“It's complicated. you know it is...”

“Only because you make it so. I say we just get on with our lives, the way we want to. The hell with the rest!”

“You know I can't do that.... they're my family.. friends.. I don't want to hurt them, any of them....”

“They'll get hurt anyway.”

“I know.. that's why I want to wait, why I want us to wait. Can we, could you just try to be patient, just a while longer, until the right time comes?”

“There'll never be a right time! And you know that! There is just no such thing as the right time. Not in this case. Just let them know about us and get it done and over with!”

“I will.. I will... I promise... “

“I only wish that I do not love you just too much as I do now.. if I didn't, I would have taken off and left... I've waited too long, I've hanged on to that promise of yours for just a bit too long...”

“I'm sorry, baby. Believe me, I am truly sorry. I hate having to do this to you. But I have to try to be fair to them. I still do love them..”

“Then what about me? Don't you then love me? When will you be fair to me?”

It's Just Not Going to Happen...

"What do you mean, you're... in love.. with me?"

"I do. Surely you knew.."

"But I didn't, don't .. I never thought ... you have to stop this.."

"But why? Don't you feel the same way?"

"No! I .. do not.. never did...I mean.. I never meant.."

"We can make this happen."

"No. It's impossible."

"Why?"

"You know why, I just can't."

"Please... I need you.."

"Stop it!"

"I can't. Please.. we can make this work, I know we can. I love you.."

"You're... Look. You have to put a stop to this. This is pure insanity! I don't want to hurt you. But, I think we shouldn't meet any more."

"No.. don't say that, I ..can't live without you, you have to stay! You must! "

"I don't have to stay.. no.. In fact, I.. just don't want to. Not any more. You.. just have to deal with this. I never, not even once, thought more of us, not as what you think. What we had, how we were.. that was good, but you... you've just- ruined it.. I'm leaving. I have to go. You.. you take care, okay? "

"Wait.. I'm sorry, I'm sorry.. please, don't go.. wait, don't leave me. I need you.. baby, baby! look at me.. baby... listen! lets forget all that I've said... lets just go back to how we were.. we can do that.. yes.. yes, we can, we can! we'll do that.. honey?"


"...wait... wait.......
.......... please...... i'm sorry... stay.. please, stay, I beg you ... I..love you...
.. i love you...."

Sins of Yesterday

Sins of yesterday... Will one ever be forgiven, in any true sense. Would yester pains just continue to haunt despite repentance.. would it be possible to feel any worse if such repentance, is reneged.. is there any need to go on.. if only in despair..

Cursed, cursed soul, so
trapped in lies. deep
In seek,
of far flung feigned salvation..

in woes you wither
and in sorrows you soar
only to slump to stern stumble and
In that grief you gasp to deeply breathe.

You poor fooled soul.
Deceived by your own dreams and
Tormented by your own belief of lies
Hold you not to the unflowering seeds –
And hope you not for the unyielding creed