I Refuse To Cry

You have to cry when you are sad.

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You may even cry if you are happy.

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I am not sad, nor am I happy.

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I am just standing here, alone, staring ahead.

Only – I am not looking at anything.

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Everything is so brightly lit up yet all I see, feel, is bleakness.

So – can I, may I, should I?

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I can feel the tears welling up within.

No! I have cried just too often before, too many times.

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They say it'll make you better.

I don't think they meant to lie - but, crying usually only leaves me weary and weak.

I haven't been introduced to that kind of crying which could've made me later feel better.

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But, even if it could ...

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I refuse to cry.